so far all our attempts at self-training have failed, I suspect due to a crippling inertia, lack of will to get off our lazy asses, and of course the permanent problem of conflicting schedules. It makes me wonder what will actually happen when we finally do manage to all get together and think of a motion. will we approach prep with reluctant, lackadaisical and skeptical attitudes (or is it just me) or will we be fresh faced and ready to churn out substantives and rebuttals, approaching them with the same attitude rabbits have towards mindless fucking? I'm sorry that wasn't a very good analogy. And I never really had much faith in teamwork, either... or at least I did for a while, but faith is hard to maintain, easy to forget.
sat in on team a + sec4 training today with annjie suyun and lewis. We bought food for the team a people. Gosh, debate training! <3 I will miss the J2 seniors (particularly those who coached us) when they graduate. I miss training in general, though I doubt my skillz at the moment.
-- promo results
oh my fucking god. oh my fucking god. oh my fucking god.
they're okay. ahhhhhh.
-- random
CIP meeting at A203 today. I went in late. No one really noticed or cared, so that was okay. The room had an unpleasantly raucous feel of stale energy. (I don't actually know if the words accurately describe the feeling I got, but these were the first words to come to mind) I think it was the lighting. Plus I don't know if the difference between the science stream and the arts stream is really that huge, or if we're just imagining it cuz we see what we (want to)/(think we) see... but I highly suspect that I'm the only arts student in there. *deer in headlights* O_O
CIP is annoying. I don't know if I want to go on another mad CIP rampage like I did last year. I want to do something more meaningful! More intelligent! More fun! (I guess you could argue for social intelligence, but I haven't developed any in the past year despite my one hundred and nine hours of CIP, so there. on a sidenote you could more accurately argue for Persistence/The Ability To Withstand Boredom & Bullshit, but ten years in the education system has pretty much already taken care of that)
okay no, ignore my pretentious generalizing faux cynicism.
Walked out to bus stop with Annjie after the training ended. Lewis and Qingyun followed us, lost in a world of their own as they argued back and forth in fluent Chinese. The two of them are really amusing and almost endearing in the way they can just forget the world around them and get totally engrossed with wtv they're doing. Annjie/me made various stops along the way -- to fill her water bottle, to go to the toilet -- and everytime we did, they made an almost unconscious decision to stop and wait for us, never stopping their conversation. well lewis was the more alert of the two. okay anyway.
